The mind talk

Being a women, you Kate. That is 1 husband + 3 kids, 1 Harry + Meghan, all that included the kids. You can only make you 1 person strong first to say, you content in your life. Live better, breath better, health better, routine the home better, the bedding, the washing, the washing machine better. Process some writing, some England video calls better.

Its not them the issues, its YOU, 1 Kate getting rid of all of them out of your life better, so you sleep better, you chat better, you quiet down better. When you could make yourself 1 person strong in the mind, in your health, in your walking, in your environment no one theft yourself, where your personal safety, or the doubts, you exist better with that environment when you are alone.

Strong means in your attitude, not waving by them, not by the guys, not by the girls, not by the upper class. JUST 1 you living to quiet down, to eat better. When you capable to langauge better, more English, more sleeping on your own to write your own diary, more anger process, or privacy you can throw in the shredder and be in the trash bags no one can peek your angry things, you process your entire mindset better.

Being strong means no one defer you on that little chat, or the little talk, whom you are, what you represent, or how you act, or fake in life. You have thousand people of the brand new country or the world you land down. America isn't UK. You understand?

Be independent, being strong, you give yourself 3 month to 1 year.

Not the blame, not the mind chat inside little noise, not the God talk, not anything inside your mind. Blank out, and sleep. You still seeing the people noisy front and the back to you, but you must set all that head chatting, or coming to you, or what not, all throw away.

BECAUSE? You have 3 kids + 1 husband Will. 

Its not the right or wrong, whom making whom looks like what. You had a past, you throw away all that, blank out your mind, keep sleeping, resting, eating better, cake better, your own food better. Make a write-out homework to plan your 12 months, in first 3 months you wish to get to....stronger mind, less angry, or impulsive, or 50 news English words on writing them down, or type it out, or the printing them out. Organize in 1 folder, 1 art book. Make that yourself, you don't need to show to Will.

You tell your head, you tell your minds.....only coming toward the front that life you had given or chooses that. Not cover up anymore, not near them, not near those conversation saying the social standing. They help you once in the newspaper, you can just stay home. They took away your kids, they understand you had a past, they given you a lot of the room to breath and roaming, and paws out your anger, or that triggering in you any doubt. 

But these Will, or 3 kids, they need to take care of those mansion business, and you be safe afar, and wishing them well, and as you grow stronger in your mind, anytime when that rain or the winds come to them, you are ready for them as a mother.

Like me, I have to walk long in those past, I airy out, the wind, the temperature, the home, the food, I stay a long time without my mother. Now I get used to have one more person, I feel different. My period, or my overall health issue.  The girl would be the bad breath.

Then one day, the medical board be honest to tell me.....there are those American local expense, that is the medical insurance, so I scream. I wasn't comfortable starting the bigger indoor, to where my office, or my chair, there is no interior design, very rusty looking. I need a lot of the space, too.....but I just take it the things they given to me, and I get used to it.

For my profession, for my career, for my retirement, for my saving, for Taiwan. I never say America anymore, its this plan up to 65 years old. Even you might have heard, that was with Eben, and then I show off to Westlife. Just those my life to eternity, its after 65 years old, its forever.....ME.

But you built up that langauge and in you, why or how you seeing yourself important to put that strong inside your every life. You use every word different, you put through a language or the write-out different, you publishing different other than the photography book. You understand?

Not the blame, not taken it down the blame, not fight with the blame, not nagging or wishing to RUSH out, like your youth time, you just splash it all out, until someone comes and beat you up, those police fee little things you spying in or out, that you were doing.

You understand?

When you settle down, that life in front of you....then you discuss with Will again. There are the other public they can help you, or even Will. You relax better, you talk better, in-room, all that sorting the luggage, and no more pretentious, you like those smile-ing talk to the social occasion, you doing good, like Will does that on his own?

You getting more serious, or more sad? 

You write them down, judging it with your mind clearly. Those are right or wrong? You have this God you believe, you have some faith issue, you have 25 years long, you cannot scream it out loud in an English, or your langauge, or what not writing, and you diary them, or shredded them, then, you trash them out. Seirously.

You doing this mind work, daily daily daily, to per monthly, to per yearly, you seeing your future in 1 to 3 years, you have those times in your life, for you yourself alone.

I what? No. I don't do those. Tina does.

The middle school I done those reading, other than the comic book, or the K6.

You built up your internal talk, they make you more...outward look, you know what they wish you to look like? So you can keep those attitude, because you are taller, you are still a lot younger. You pretend you are the British. Someone pushing you down, you push them back. THAT IS WHEN YOU feeling the best. You hydrate better, you sleep down, quiet down, less people agitate you, or you go and agitate those guilt part. 

When you are capable, to internal built, then you say something back. You try again, how do you video talk better, you gala better, or appear better, or if those things really really really means to you that much. You period, or the trash, or the bathing, or the sleeping, clutching, no more phone, or running inside your door, if you are aware or the kids all that.

Your own health.

The internal strong means....how you verbalize. Stand and represent the women population, or your kinds, the poverty some girls, or some women minority right.

You work on your English, or Welsh, or Japanese. Your writing in English, how you express per word, per sentence, per saying. You are not wasting your life doing things for the last 25-30 years? You continue that when you get your health back. 

No, not the heart going up or down, someone rush inside your front door?

No. No kids like an immediate, you imagine you take care of them for the rest of their life? You know how you get in the palace life, and got set apart? But you are not strong, you got something to sort out, you put your mind inside, think think think.

You give yourself time, you give them their time.

You always put yourself a little bit priority, your time to sort inside you ALONE. The girl's period, you always say those things don't exist, someone agitates you in and out of the same building, the phone call, to get out, to get in. You wish to sleep in?

You never live that life, you want to just throw away anything else, you cannot change that. They don't let you come back to the palace, then DON'T!

You cried? 

All the guys.

When I was in the America, I just step the hell of their head, GOODBYE~

THIS IS THE DAY I becoming the Shakyamuni Buddha, 10 disciples of which stories I never heard of, the garbage all Chinese ancient or history or Western world. (Step on them, step, step, step, step)

Sangha, giant, all these garbage words inside the movie !!! Even the pirates ~~! I am the Heaven and on Earth.

You being confident for you, yourself. Not for your parents, or your husband, or your kids. You don't doing that for them. You doing all that internal works for you yourself. You know you had a value when God given you a soul and a meaning in life.

You learn.

You learn how to see, how to watch, how to walk in the wind better, how to maneuver your physical body and the physical health better. Eat better, sort the chore better, your own independent life.

You can sing, too !! 

You read all this clear?!