You tell the Judge, you have a wobble personality, meaning people coming up to you saying something, your heart, mind, soul jumping all around. Your whole life 40 years with this.

You say you cannot change that.

你告訴法官，你有一個左右搖擺的個性，意思人上來跟你說什麼，你的心、神，靈魂跳來跳去，你的整輩子 40 年這是這樣子。

你說你無法改變這樣

You tell them how you coming in to Taiwan for 500 NT per month they give you a Vietanese nun, because you run away from your husband, that bank doesn't have much money, til later, how you becoming this 1986 Chinese Zen Buddhism Association on the legal name, you will never do such things, you just tell the Judge once more. So the day, when the police comes, including if there are the police pretending inside your disciple all these time, your heart pace never get along with the legal justice, ever. You feeling you got punished, the first day whatever the things you got detained up to now. Everything to the public is to set up for the public or you wear out your fake life, because......you got married. 

你告訴他們，你是怎麼抵達台灣一個月 500 台幣，給一個越南出家尼姑，因為你跑掉你德國丈夫，這銀行並沒有錢，直到之後，你怎麼變成這 1986 中國禪定佛教協會在立法名稱，你從來就不可能會做出這種事情，你在一次告訴法官，所以那一天，當警察出現包括如果有警察當你裡面的徒弟，這些時間，你的心跳動從來沒有真的跟立法司法，處好過，你感覺你被逞罰，從第一天事情你被逮捕，直到現在，所有事情在公眾都是為了公眾或是你疲憊這假的人生因為....你結婚了。

You tell the Judge, inside your life as you grew up, you never see the police this much forces to be in front of your faces, or the legal measurement them show up in front of you, every step the way inside your life, you are a Vietnamese, we sound like that criminal, but be seen with the police show up in front of my face, she Anna never had one incident other than the hospital people she sees, just not the Judge or the lawyer, or the police force. My heart went a lot of this up or down as a women. I don't even know why I should tell you all this, someone told me to tell you, I am not feeling all that well, all my life during all these time including the political movement such as the 90s refugee move to Philippine, as the organization getting wealthier, I probably will never do such things and right at Taiwan, because I am too short, and is a foreigner. Til the day I have to dye to the blonde hair, I literally die in many piece starting the short hair, and my land in Florida got governmental suspend, we are filling the land mass like the newspaper says, I had a French pseudo name. 

You say, Anna she didn't do anything of one human extra inside her space other than that one nick or her mother. I coming here, I .....want to express myself as I written here. Her world, its one computer, one room, one mother whom cooked the food on the table, one nick far away. Some Internet new or some friends show up wealthy at her age. But she doesn't have one staff issue, meaning hate or trouble, or talking to her....I gone through for 40 years, that my fluctuation of life to the legal justice is endless. She got none. 

I didn't really think I can change the day starting 1986, or before, when the first time or its her birth 1983, I was seen or spot, or found to arrive in Taiwan, or I starting to see the First Police in my year would be.........how old that I was.

I didn't expect that someone like her will care for me, meaning this one incident of my life review if the police force or the stranger shows up inside my life, I wishing all of them go to hell or whomever this, how I whine up this far, anyone but me in this one organization go to heaven, and sent them all to hell. Because I got forced, or I got detained, and correct, I know Taiwan 90s, those classmate issue, or whenever I have to flying out of the Taiwan very often because I don't have a visa to stay in Taiwan. America given me a Golden Key, but I cannot stay in America neither. 

To a lot of the things, the strangers, or every so often, the women snatch the guy, or the guy snatch the girl, or let go these coming and going friends or enemy of this entire organization, I don't really have a family anymore to think for me or anymore classmate, to sound like Anna she got a happier life, or the trouble things they all fight about, they are all American looking. 

If these details being said, or that my account to get to know whom I am, or how I was, I personally didn't really know how the medical board doing things its for the justice, right, or for me myself, and she told me, its for me.  Its for my health reason. 

Anna says.....

Its probably a lot of this legal people if show up, either the physical ashram, the donor, or the disciple asking you the troubles, or the America past, or anything if you just hear the lawyer, to hear the justice, or the court paper, or the water sewage, or the trailer renew license, or all that combine stress just to seeing the people in front of you, the police is the word Anna says when they knock at your door, or check you very often.

You will tell the Judge, that rabbit in the movies is not real. You are not really born to go and police anyone, your heart also going up or down, anything if wrong, and not virtuous, being blackmail like the Taipei Contact person seeing the email, you got told, you feel panic too. 

Anna says, if I can take the police out of my life, I will feel a lot more calmer, to focus the meditation or the retreat life. Not every two second breathing time, if they show up, or the materials to be put on the TV, it is by being told to do, and none of that my will, all that.....its anyone Anna she never sees, other than the family member like her mother, she doesn't know that is a pain, or nick is a guy, she returns home, she found the difference being with a guy, or stay closer to the mother sometimes until she sees another person to live a happier life. 

I think this....fluctuation of life....might be the very rooted scene. If these people Anna photo got proven on the movies its everyone see, and those meant the standard of the Heaven felt, I will tell you, I got none, its all the fluctuation of my heart going up or down, none stop whenever this one incident got reported, and again and again to let me be aware, that troubles are never end, its the human problems. 

I want the police to know, I am friendly or cooperate, really. I always doing that. But every time there is a legal manner, or things be dealt upon, my heart went up or down. If my father is alive, and I have that kind of the realness someone can talk for me, these disciple is real, I know ....but that sensation Anna says, if any stranger that you see, is another goodbye saying hallo, were never permanent, you don't really have one person stable to talk to like this scene can stop.

They are filled inside their world, and Anna speaking of a certain type of the people showing up, including the proven end degree with the court, you are the Judge, I want to inquire, how her reality be seen by everyone, because I don't watch the movies, to say per photo next by another history words, or description, or the name of the youtube video....you make her money, she make her seeing...that is all she says or claims. Can I be told, can I know if you are the one communication to her side, and this photo validity, to where.....all these....

Meaning, she got a title on the TV, but ....where is the rest of the story. You given her money support to keep that seat, or she just staying with her mother only?

And if she stays with her mother only, did any police show up there with these reports she abused the internet saying the account, the false or real, or anyone seeing the TV or the movies, say, that is per photo validate per side by side, the name, the comic book, the TV, the claims?

yeah, you talking normal with the Judge.

I only need to hear from you say yes, because, I wish that is real, but she makes me feel very down turn. Really. And the celestial realm those claim, it blister me just like she told everyone. I cannot take it. My ego cannot take it, my hard working to endure a lot of this cannot take it. Everyone praise me, applause me, money me, wealth me, and these movies putting my face into my tears from behind. Worse, there is the consequence on the movie, that....as if everyone knows, and I try to tell you, I didn't watch any of that, at all. 

Anna says, if I can take back my family members, or even just one classmate coming near to talk, or to be around, other than the strangers coming and going inside this professional life, and can retire without seeing anymore police, meaning no more public fame, no more human issue, no more police, or the youth goes and screw it up themselves, its all belonging to them issue, this fluctuation of the heart to mind, I will do a lot better as the human reason for myself, other than the pride issue, everyone can smell. 

I coming here to talk funny....

Do you know the reason why she told me to repeat these account to you Judge, if her PCAT is 97 percentile, where that mind is to say something like that? 

To my scene, I know I just deal with it, not just the police, or the water sewage company, that is the company staff that inform me issues, and I have to deal that those issues. Being grown up means to do all that. 

Anna says....she says no, you don't need to grow up. I don't understand why she told me to say all these, but I bring these copy with me to tell you, what is this one lifetime of the mistake, and that movie making what things inside the TV story plot, I becoming unaware, or ever will.....something just getting visible and visible, because she makes her money, on things I cannot see. And she stays there forever....I cannot take any of that.