When I was with Nick, usually just he and me life. Not with his kids.

They grown up, to go outside. Most time he doesn't talk about his kids. His sister and his mother or his friend. Most them has the house. 

Both nick and King Charles getting too old. On Earth, everyone has to die, you know that, right? Your parents, your parents near by, you knowing it or not knowing it. That degree of the total life span, not you saying you going home, you always come home and they gonna always be there waiting for you. It affects you.

It affects every kid.  

If you imagine you ever have any kid, that is a totally different life.

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Nick used to tell me his whole life story. He wrote a book, I never open. He told me every step the way. From his first job, to how he buys a house, all that ....

Your love your parents, you have to communicate with them open, you give them strength to believe something before that, or after that. Meaning a correct proper way, you don't die on them in front of their faces, you all having nothing but that. 

I have 2 sibling here, and I can tell your life from the TV. Is that what you wish me to say? Right now your parents get too old, I cannot talk to them. My mother gets the age too, affect her, and this Tina every year coming back same to Pang, coming back to Taiwan its where they go and see a doctor. How many times she really goes and see a doctor? 

With me, she goes and see the doctor.

You rush in and rush out. And none of them knowing exactly what went on to your life. They see exactly the things I Anna see. Until you have the kids, you realize you do this to your parents, just like your kids gonna do to you in the future. Tina has 2 kids, and Hank has 4. Tony and Mimmo has 2. You wonder a lot of things how a person finding a job in the future, because when Tina's 2 kids go to America, I highly doubt they know much any English to say, if they will go to America college at all. Tina will come to broke or with Hank. 

You say if her mother doesn't know.

Or I find out for her, something happened 20 years ago. 

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When I stabilize myself, let's say the finance, I will tell you still, my mother is what is close to me. She used to send him, or call me, or come to see me with Nick. I don't get anyone else all around me. And same to you, whomever you find on the road to say true love, your real parents when that money can supply, he or she will mean to you the most.

Not the true love, I will tell you that.

Not to me exactly.  I got too many in front of me, its any time things can go, can say, can put up, I don't know which things are real or not real, just go along with it.

But inside my life, I can handle myself the basic thing, the house, the utility, the talk, the seeing, the idea everything if I keep myself clear. Me.

You planning to die on people, or you planning to die on me, and you go home lock up your room, and you looking at everyone's story, not just one me Anna's story. You have MD story on the map and on the screen. You feeling what? 

Everybody dance together? 

To tell the guys, whichever that guy I suppose to be with, if he knows I can handle everything inside my own space, that is the second stage of the dating arena. If he has to go on his voyage, meaning getting another life, and I stay in Asia, he or both of them I am okay. I hanging so many things before, I don't go and suffer myself. I just don't plan to get another relationship because I have a mother. I stay home, I still care for myself health wise. Everything they heard gonna hear thousand times, the washing, the alochol wipe, the door lock...its to speak to 194, if not MD 20+; 

So, in your term, these 2 guys if I am not together, and they getting a brand new love life, we cannot work out too many things on the TV, we becoming the enemy.

Do you want to tell your enemy, I gonna keep living, here is how I live.

"Welcome next time, come back to Asia WESTLIFE! Love you, Mark !!!" 

One day, you might just only have your enemy that keep on living....and everyone else dies, you ever think this you reborn another body too many times?!  And one day, everyone just keep dying, and finally, I have no one I know from this century in life. 

Okay, that's about it. 

I tell you Tina last time the phone conversation about last year I think talking to my mother, and my mother let me know they are on going at war with Hank. Meaning there is a court room hearing, a judge exists.

That time I immediately telling you the 5th time, change your attitude with the judge. I used to say that, but that time I say I think you need to have a lot better attitude with the judge.

You know, that is a real lawyer, not me type, I have let you all garbage venting trash can, those kind? Buddhism statue is where the garbage collector at. 

Its the first time I seeing a judge, correct. With Tina.

I know you walking in, they are at the ending of it. That entire picture doesn't have their very clear sensation how they have a personality, I can see them reading the paper. Everything doesn't have a distinct idea they like what they read, or they stare at reading. I only can see they reading it. I sense tiny bit, and I know you all personality like that, and the talking manner. So I saying that.

But when Tina's that side coming forward.

Did I say I cannot go to the court? We all have a case, but I don't need to file at this time?

If you get smart, at least you asking me to go with you to meet the judge. Every court room has a bench. Or including your lawyer office, this faint thin air, I cannot sense anything.

" I coming here today...." 

" Hi your honor, this is the last time we have meeting at the date of, and today I brought my mother with me and ex bf. They know each other."

" Good morning, your honor, today I brought some close people with me. I let them sit on the bench. One is my ex bf, he asked to come. The other is the file-ing....the last 10 years with me, my mother."

"Dear your honor, I have a good sleep last night, so I thought about the court meeting today, and what went on in the discussion. I brought someone in, my ex bf, and my mother. We are all friendly to each other, so I let them know in details I coming here with you, and you have see me at these dates, date 1, date 2 and date 3. So our communication has been constant between me and my ex bf, and my mother. Its not to make them worry. My mother is where I live. My ex bf right now is by himself. We separate because I return to Taiwan but I told him everything that has happened."

" Good morning your honor, I went to do some group session of this lawsuit I file in relation to something I ask my lawyer for, so today I brought them in. We stay on the zoom to communicate, and behind we have the email correspondent to exchange each other's paper works."

"Your honor, in some of the lawyers we talk to, because we went to our different route in life, and everyone asking totally different questions behind, some of them talk to their parents, and I talk to mine. I make a list of a question, I want to ask you, I have a copy here that is us together saying what we think the questions, if you allow, can we spend 5 mins on this one sheet, just a several question we want to ask you as a group, they are at the bench right now, if you wish to call them behind me."

Am I too late? 

You want to abuse me, so you go to abuse my facebook....AND?