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The aging process...

My foot I trim them, and this run on the sandle often off-and-on, to lose the weight, there are those hard skin at the top foot, that edge bone. Like my house peeling off....I cut it with the knife. When your father or mother pass away, it would be an assistant living because you keep your mind clear. You can ....do the apprentiship manager, like keep 100 files in your room, and most of them don't use the computer that age. You sign in on the front desk, the first time....and if you got enough money, that will be the last time....but you passing it by every single day that reception windows similar to the dorm life in every university. 

Except they are all the white hair. So....that time you first time to realize you are 65 years old, and the first time you probably don't have your parents hand-in-hands taken you walking through that process. A friend, might be like you flink her an eyesight, and hurry in with your luggage in, and you got nervous to talk to the staff there. Its just the working people behind the desk. And your friend is not like your mother, to carry a few more luggage or buying you some underwear from the Macy's. Or the senior people's dipper. Your father's SUV trunk = the basket of the fruits, or the bagels, or the dippers, the water boiler, ....

You might come in as the wheel chair, because your hip fall off and under the operation, you no longer can be 1 person living inside your own home, and you are taken to those by your kids, or you got told after the surgical operation + the fees you need to pay, they told you 1st surgical or the 2nd surgical, you are alone, no one sign your form in the hospital, you need an emergency contact.....and best to use the wheel chair, and best an electric car, and best in an assistant living, and here is the sheet how much they cost.

Usually you just hire a nurse to settle you a week permanently, you feel like you have a mother, how they talk to you, how they carry your thing, how they listen to your instruction and politely reply to you, and welcome you, or encourage you. But once the money runs off, their car left that facility, you will be 1 person walking in.

That is the good part of the capitalism, they don't nose into your real life to keep the privacy. 

65 I think, but I have heard a 60 even, I believe....he told me.

You can stay as long as you can afford it. I think you find a site in 50 states, because they all have the heating, and you can watch the deer from the outside walking in, you feel the happiest thing in life, to look around from the inside windows.

Some kids die out, and the aged really old citizen they got move to another room walking with the walker, not too much money. 3 kids those, they die about 60. The father was 80 something.

Me? No, I keep living ! 

These airplane line isn't the most difficult thing like to Japan, to Taiwan, to Singapore. In another 40 years, the world might develop a lot different in the medical equipment, to the skin care, to the eye laser, to the blurry (the older people surgery), the real medical science goes with the prevention to the disease can go fast fast fast.

Me and Shane can be in the same room. Usually the man die, the women don't last forever if they are always together, and you would be surprised that your father's time, those older....they stay forever together. 

I take him where he would be more happy, really, not those places. I watch him.

Grace, used to have 3 kids.

Run a senior home, I think. Nick told me.

He is the only guy without the hair, to say short enough to get to your waist line and look at it, and touch it. His hand is bigger because he has to vocational school, those melting gold stuffs in a mold. 

A hug, for your back skeleton bones those.

Most guys in any age, will never carry those period language or the wound, or the cut, or the iodine, like anyone looks like that Dean, or Silas, or Jonas those.

To say a caring doctor you will find, they got fat, and stressful very very often. 

Repeating those details how to washing a period, and when you squat on the toilet, the blood dripping in the public toilet, you so wish these 2 side wall isn't that small.

To purchase your linen.

And a guy too busy, they never care about those details, how to open their drawer and find the branding, but they learn on the guy's world. They are.

Just not the medical science, the money little, and they have no pain in their life to register will they ever need to help someone like you.

They only operating like that. Not the feeling talk, not the sensation the lower waist....its cramp you cannot describe.

Cramp is the worse of something cannot pin point its outside the skin, and please take away.

As a girl, you can feel, like more intense pain, or you drink the cold ice, or the ice or heating pad at that abdomen area. 

But to any guy, they just watch you with the blank eyes, in this whole wide world, why are you so in pain like that? 

It is a burden, its a trouble, its...unwanted to hindrance their future, to their momentum, to make them suffer to look at you unhealthy like that.

That those guys not even pretending to give you 2 second breathing moment. The Asian or the Whites.

It is never the love or the hatred feeling toward that romance anyone define, it is never never true. 

If I do all these, I need to lay down, I will tell Shane that, my private time, because its a lot of the work running on my feet, I used to do that.

No, sleeping or showering, all the dust on me, all the water on me.

Tired.