In the dark night, we look up, sometimes we see the stars.

In America or in Canada, you can see the night sky with the stars spreading everywhere or the milkyway arm. Here is the city so polluted, you never will see a star. I never had seen the stars. 

Then one day I sitting in the airport, waiting to come back, and that was a horrible year, I never thought what if that life isn't this. You looking at each home, I used to driving and seeing the night lamp from all the houses inside, "What do they do for a living to succeed in this big city, or any city I ever been to."

And one day, there is an Annca's TV and Disney Princess Diary movie. That was so so long ago, that was like when I starting another sophomore year in UB.

They are the role play, in the school, the college kids doing that the custom dress up. Then we had a drag queen show. Tom was thin, so he was the escort for the girl. Ayo does the bidding or he throws himself up there to be bidding it down. A blind date.

They both gains a lot of the weight, so are Keegan. They need to lose like 20-40 pounds wishing 1 year effort if some photo means to them, but their jobs are stressful. 

So I thought about somethings when I seeing them again, it wasn't quit the same.

One day I seeing more things, to literally, seeing the same duplicate person, again, its not the same.

But sometimes a boy grown up to be a man, they seeing more things, like your brother.

Or even you gone to the military, if you all literally both seeing the dead people or the dead body instantly next by you and pick it up, and carry them the shoulder back. You no longer playing those too much of the computer games, saying, if were you used to be a destiny, you doing some good for your own country people, so stand up strength. And one day you got thrown on the real public television, you stand there, and the audience filled up the seat to welcome you for like 10 mins speech.

Some people don't ever give a support to the worlds, in any way, in any shapes of the form. Many of those classmates, and so they encounter some fate. Relevant or non relevant, they cannot tell by the time clock. It didn't mean to them that much, in the end of the days they will admit to that so they saying the family doesn't support them, the family didn't provide them the education, the background wasn't the money made of, or the parenting wasn't enough. All of that saying ...

Sometimes a close call, you wonder if there is a justice or a God exists in that moment, where are all these people go? And where am I going with this, all that. 

Its a real life scene, and its never so secretly as if no one knows that what's was on a job, becoming I am the job, all that. That is really really bad. And that life no longer can be contained in the normal scene, or a table chat to vent, to sway, or to meant, what it used to be all those language it was the comfort zone a bit, it was every other kids never require to, and so was I am, or so are these kids, where are their future holds and why I am not the same comparing to their money saying, or the family simple saying. I hate the public television appearance. All the bright light is right on my faces.

The focus light.

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These are the street food. Not your palace fine dining....

I am not talking to Harry, or Meghan, never. Not Kate, nor you.

I talked to Tina and Pang, once and maybe 1 or 2 year, I message them once. Not calling them. We never talk the last 30 years since the middle school.

You have a certain family structure, you want to control them. 

You can talk to them, yes.

Is that the bad conscious, if you don't do your jobs like they are your family, and you just don't communicate it anymore. 

No. But you are still a softer or sweet guy you wish that family is retained as part of you.  And everyone else all got a family structure. You wish the kids growing up to know they have the uncle and aunt, or like you yourself, you had some wish, and all these TV makes you realize, what conscious you obey, or good or bad. You talking to yourself about what's good, or what's bad.

So it is okay, to talk to them?

Yes.

Talking to them like a sentence or 2, that kind?

Yes.

You mean if I talk to....this is One Direction, or Dr. T, or an Asian girl, or the bubble bath....Tamang?  No, I don't talk to them. 

And why not?

You mean Dr. T, to sway him to my classmates those? We finish talking after the office hours, he would remember, right. And you need those professor, not the high school teacher always be your best friends, your English? You hire a brand new younger college tutor.

No, controlling that classroom, that teacher or the professor.

You never talked to a professor?

Not really.

We are in the same chemistry department but he is in Cooke Hall, you realize that? The rest of the other White professor, in my chemistry upper class were in NSC. I know that. The chemistry club was in NSC, his mail box, or my club mail box is outside that common secretary desk, it is an overall office, and they got ALL the chemistry professor mail box inside right next by to this one secretary. Not the outside my club mail box.

And what is that he is an Asian professor?

My chemistry advisor retired. I know what is his name. He is a white, too. Dr. T is the only Asian professor there, and in Cooke, that is the pharmaceutical building. 

And all that you cannot talk to him, to solve all the UB classroom all that all the way to SA?

Cooke Hall has a general college curriculum advisor, and UB Honor Class, has their luxury lounge room with the scholarship bound all that, their Honor Class Advisor, it will never be me and Bill just strolling outside to that one lady, dead by now, she was so old in Cooke Hall.

Is this anything to do with the office in the school, LIKE HARRY POTTER?

If I was in the school (in UB), I have to walk 500 times back and forth including everyone's office, I did ! That was over ! They move, everyone moves out, I did what I like, contact or no contact. I find my way here. I get some other things I go and contact.

Or even Westlife, when Shane shows up. 

You don't have to be if you were me. You mean that is a campus life, or you mean if they are a group life. I am not in those groups lifes anymore.

You don't think for me, pretend to be me.

If you had the classmate, and you looking at your own facebook, you going near to their life pretending. Or you and Kate talk about it.

It will be a happy life if you can control them?

I just control my facebook, I can control them. Not with Dr. T.

To get the name !!

NO! I remember whom they are, just not the last name. It doesn't matter anymore. 

Not that, not that, not that.

How is your father and 26

How is me and Shane (or Nicky/ Kian)

How is you and the new lady.

Its about your movie. Yesterday the same.