Other than those smokes will sip through the wall, you don't do that indoor.
They give you some instruction, right? So you follow that at the door. Today you just sniff your nose outside the door a bit. You be aware where you are, and you learn where you are, little by little a bit. You need to see that as your home for now,
You calm down its because YOU CAN open the door tiny bit let the air in, your nose, your face to get cool. Is that snowing in Japan?
No, we don't snow here.
Do you feel better, your nose to sniff the air for 2 mins. To calm down. Not so cluster indoor?
The window cannot open, or you get more stuffs to lock it up? Can you calm down? Where you get these stuffs?
Calm down, means your 2 shoulder up, breath up to your head, relax down, inhale and exhale the air slowly. Do you notice your 2 shoulder its very sore and nervous?
Do you have to dress like that? You don't have a comfortable home living ugly pajamas?
These are the polyester or furry a bit Wal-mart I bought them....so many years. I wear that coming back here from Canada. The pants.
There are these over-size thicker long sleeves, cotton made. The cotton means better at your skin. You don't feel static or something. So they talk about the cotton a lot. The tag will tell you if that has how much percentage of cotton.
Your underwear to keep warm, Japan probably has these cotton made, too. Not just us here. America sells those.....not cotton very stick to to the skin.
You might really like your home one day, just not today. They are well research before you even knowing that yourself. How do you get to this house all around?
I don't think you shop these things for you yourself or for your kids, neither.
That....you can put 2 rugs, before you run.....that is not a space I know. One at the beginning, one at the end. For your foot, you gonna wear a sandal? A furry sandal?
The door, you use those a lot more "dry" rough mat heavy and thick at the door. To scrap your shoe away from these snow. Any kind of the snows, your 2 foot on it, slide one foot, slide another foot, that is how you use that rough mat, and your shoes are clean, and you coming in the door.
You planning how you shop everything, or you gonna make a note, you needs these things, or you gonna go out like the last 2 days, you getting what things in your hands, a plastic bag. You can get like 3 "recycle" those that store has those bags to go home. You carry all that in your taxi to come back.
You buy some other bags in some other places.
We are not getting a lot of the things, your mind is everywhere. You don't have a lot of the words to describe you yourself. You write any diary home, to feel your sense, at all? You have any notebook, any pencil box, or the stationary yellow stickers? In your luggage.
Its just ONE DAY, you are on your own. In your life, you think back, there is one day, you are on your own....and where you end up you yourself.
You think back, your memory back. You had 1 day inside your life.
1 day inside your life, you are on your own, where did you go, and what did you do?
Can you calm down?
Yes, you can always open that door, every once a while, to breath the air. You got scared, your head out and see, of course. Its snowing, so no. But....you can walk a bit to see left and see right. You calm down, you can do that?
What do I think?
Japan all doing that, its not targeting at you. Their last name will be at one side of that.....you looking at it, right or left.
Do they say you can get a dog? If they say you can get a dog there, then you walking it fine over there. Meaning they watch you. It may not be today. Just one of those days.
No, not dress like that, walking a few house down. Can you get a jean and a sneakers, and how do you keep that door opens, you can walk a few house down and come back. Its not your home used to be....all of that, NO.
Why you want to do that? Can you get a key? + your phone.
No, not you used to be, NO!
You have a phone holder, that has some phone cards, the metro cards, and the phone you can call inside that phone holder + some written things like your address or some Japanese location. That is your safe thing = 1 key (whichever) + that phone inside the photo holder everything in it.
You walk with that. NOT YOU USED TO BE. NO.
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You are waiting something this morning, anyone calls you?
Or you want to do that now, 5 mins. If they telling you things, that's fine. But if just open that door about 2 cm, and your nose going outside and breath, that's fine !!!
You have never seen this kinds of the door?
You can scream, I am not there !
You trying to be comfortable where they drop you off. You keep everything inside your brain, other than making that your cozy space, anything you wish to hide, to sleep, to eat, to buy, to collect, the spice, or the food, or the magazine, or the diary you write write write your anger out. They can put you some works or some expectation, but they want you to relax, and not this Will this Will that. He needs to go to sleep, all of them need to go to sleep. Me too.....its so painful.
You want to ask me if anyone there + the camera, be honest?
No.
But you can feel some sensation?
The high tech is there, but its not the Earth scene, if you fall down, no one will save you, seriously. I don't know how long my seeing last, I don't usually check anything.
You are very sure?
Yes. You have to be on your own, including telling them, you have a sensation its not like that, I will tell you, it is like that. You need to tell them almost every little things, so they can help you there.
Will says, or you know for sure, he gonna ask you to come back to the palace?
Those things? Can you just be where you are many years, don't mind them how they re-structure that England? This is real, or this is how or whom says that.
They put you in this places what?
You talk like that, or your attitude is really like that? You vocal that kinds of the sound volume to them, or to me? Can you put those hurts away, you have one day looks like you trying to go out in the morning or later, where are these things you buy to say, you get the kitchen set up, so you cook, what things to eat?
I need to tie that Will up, or Mark, too ~~~~ I check them maybe tomorrow, they go to sleep, so you have 1 day here looks like you prepare your meal next 7 days, you feel breathing.
You need to know what? How they drop you like that? The justice, or the last 1 weeks or 2, where you been? Then, tell me, where you been?
I know, you know. 2 of us human knows. That is a nice thing to do, to run about, to say the Christmas air, or what it was 3 months ago? So why don't you listen?
When I put a very stern language down, to put you down, including to hurt you.....tell me in 5 years, you looking back, someone like me will do that to you, putting you down, for the last 2 weeks, seriously, where you been?
NO ONE dying together, whatever that is.
You gonna do that for the future people, for Will, or for your kids? Just because of that piece of the movies, everyone keeps dying? THE JUDGE decides that, HIS FATHER is handling that.
Anything can change in per 2 weeks interval. People live life is to keep changing it. Their royal life, they all knowing that. You cannot keep doing that, for you yourself or for your kids.
If the Asia commanders saying I retrieve, meaning I let go all of you......
The rest of the kids have to go up there with you all whomever.....he is the commander. I cannot hear your saying to Will, or Will on the phone, I don't care about to hear that, but you trying to say, its Will says this Will says that. You cannot dictating him, or that entire security people YOUR LAST 2 WEEKS, where you been?
So aren't you tired and get mad, angry? Can you sit down, if you don't want to open that door to breath 2 mins of it.
You want to hold that Japanese girl's case to dictate Will? He calls you just now?
The human at the border you listen to them as the Royal Family member, the working member? They have every reason to tell you everything, you don't care what they talk about it. They move her down, because you never approve, or her parents are here, you gonna hurt her, all that....do you just say you will not do that here in Japan?
You are not allowed to hurt anyone, in any world, including in England, at all.
I say that again, no one is at your space, you need to take care of yourself in everything.
Not bossing the space, not commanding the space, not yelling at the space, then you go and yelling at the phone !! No one knows why you feeling the way you are ~~~!!!
You really talk like that, or you really yelling at King, or Will, all at the same time, and in the future, your 3 kids, you just blast and yelling at them?
Did you eat?
Boil the eggs a dozen, you have a whole week morning, just 1 boiled egg? Per morning. At least one thing going it down?
Are you going to organize your space here? To eat 7 days at least to say a week you live here?
That is 20 mins boiled the 20 eggs, 2 boxes eggs you have to carry home.
You want to sit down to make that decision? Are you going to make it through these 7 days on your own, the best you got was each day an egg, if you boiling them now, you have the 2 weeks getting mad in this random space....but in 10 mins, you have something inside your mouth ?
In the morning, when the air is VERY COLD in JAPAN, you put a scarf and a hat, always going out, even in 2 mins.
Hanging near the door.
You have to create all these space yourself, on your own.
You can eat per hour, not just per 3 meals. Not every hour an egg, those avocado, you can eat per hour, or the banana. Just something inside the stomach to go to the bathroom next day morning routine.
You find the cushion, or the floor mat today, you have something looks like a home, you know that. Japanese home they design like that. You want a chair, or a brand new table there, if you can set up?
1 month ago Taipei, that was GONE, not Taipei to Japan, or Japan to Taipei, you still end up this one house, they purchase it for you RIGHT NOW. You have the things to do in Japan, how many times I keep saying that.
Not those plan, what if, if not, put anything warmer to your stomach, some warmer water, the boiler. You didn't BUY anything 1 day on your own.
You didn't set up anything in that one space. You keep thinking, thought about, wake up 2 days on this home? You survive 1 day ! Look at that.....You want to buy an Ipad a bigger screen, and get the internet cable done, you never asking them the correct question, the heating bill, the gas bill, the cell phone bill, the web usage on the phone, you cannot see, so you getting a bigger monitor, does it have to be Samsung, or touch screen, those?
You want to get the giant screen, touch and click, you can even play the games on it...
You are not using any PC. You organize your own happy space, they meant you doing it on your own, so I never say anything, at least give you 1 day .....and look at that.
You get the bean bag ...on over there, to sit watching anything "mounted" on the wall like a TV, not the touch screen. THE TV.
You have to collect these items one by one. So I asking you, you gonna live here 7 days to make these possible, all on your own?
You put your minds onto some of the manual works, you won't be calling anyone in Britain, they are busy, you know that? Try to live out your own space a little bit. You write your notes, what you lack, you cannot keep forgetting everything you suppose to buy, you learn that mistake once, or twice, you get to organize this walking out of the door, you have anything you wish to go home and get the list and buy.
The list, I am not going to give you the list. But if you seeing it like one page, next time you know you print them down, or in your head, it looks like something you are not too chaos at it.
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