Will

Right, you mean I mis-understand you, or your sub-consciousness, or you wish to do that, or you got told not to do that. Or you never do that.....all of that?!

You wish to change how you talk to that lady, smile-ing and trying to ask her something? Like trying to? Its from your room you have to WALK all the way somewhere.

I cannot tell the reality.  Can you imagine you are confident to talk to 1 her. She gonna retire and disappear......you putting your position on the top of her in your conversation a lot more you dominating that situation, not the blame, not the accusation, not this, not that, I want to do it, or else not....all of that. + Riley you don't call him often, I thought its every night a Line app, you have so many other Line app, other than him and her.

"I want to ask you something today ...."  (open a conversation)

"Hi Riley, you got a min?"

Phone

"Hi, you and Riley I put in the group chat. This is the time that is important I am that I am. Which I am that I cannot be, all that included, because I have about 3 sense out of the impaired to say I ever exist in front of the television."

"This is not the conversational time, I need some print out, and not me reading it through it, my mind too chaos. You both can report to me next day. Talk to me,....please."

"I am drinking my water more diligently but I am not shipping my water, these maid I asking them, or I need to tell you to ask one of them or the janitor to the rest of my life, I have to keep drinking the water with....40 gallons in my room, that kinds? A water boiler. I never done those things."

"Happy New Year, you know I am singular out on 2 video that is dark and grey, bright and shining through the star, did you watch it? Its the serenity out of the darkness so quiet, just looking from behind, you feel the solomn swear, those solomn......me, I ever solomn looking in my sleeping time for 40 years will be. You can tell the difference of the 2 video. I about to die, and she is knocking her head off in her room?"

"There is a scene that is I hide, you seek. I need to know how you feel the difference of these 2 video, INSIDE your reality? What do you think it looks like from me?"

1. You want to get them attention to do what you want.
2. You want to look like its 2 cancer, you are the main character finally arriving up, those speech format.
3. You got knock down your pride over the Lords of Ring or Mark, or that Dark Lords, you hold the thousand fake army saying those are the greenie cloudz women.
4. You were told very young, not to hinted from those things, and you making it through without those focus even in your "ghost realm" those behind your door room, that opens and close.
5. You don't want to sound like an excuse, so you cannot straight up your back standing in front of them, you did watch these video, She did say something, you assume they are taking any side including they reading through it the first thing in the morning.
6. You never ask them in every single morning, "DO YOU READ IT, I care about it ! "
7. These details you can write it down for me, my conscious mind or the subconscious mind, which thing added up, I have so many issues, you ever heard those saying, its from the movie?
8. What I gonna do? Face it all? This hour this time, we or I never knew that per strand clear.
9. Am I still considered psycho if I cannot recite one page this book, any book? Not normal, just not seeing things? Which doctors get to me, they will tell me the same answer, I want to know?
10. Try 1 or 3, you think? You like how I asking you to re-phrase, or how I sound like to you. You have a problem with that? Because.....it might be I sound like more of myself, if you tell me what's wrong with me, than me trying to come to you, and you seeing it all, and I am guessing all the way.

No, you are not changing every thing in 1 week, to 3 weeks yet, to first month will be the New Year another month passing it by. You communicate trying 1 sheet, might be the first sentence you highlight on this sheet, per points, you can only utter one word out of that point. Will.

You make a small note, 1 word per 10 points, and those words blank out, you walking back and forth, and you think. You finally get to 3 points in 1 conversation, so at the noon time, you get another points to say the full sentence.

I want to talk about it.

Okay?!

Good night Will and Mark LOTR. Happy New Year. We are colder today to run outside.