Calling your family

Calling in

"No, you don't have to call your family like me. I just wonder if you know the natural flows of things in life ...its a birthday card, or the candle and some cakes, and they got only 3 or 4 people I sent the invitation cards, or just me and my mother the outside cafe. That is I get very happy and excitied, and seeing you hope, open and close the door.

To catch my X-rays appointment, and staring at that airport door how to get to Japan and inquiring the bills, all by myself. For the King, for Kate, and for your brother as well. You can talk about their X-ray image. Its a long yellow folder, and when you trying to fit your large suitcase, you put behind that bags, you don't need to tie it. Its a brown yellow bag, and inside that is where the doctor flip that under the light. You know that? "

"I have to carry this for the rest of my life, my suitcase on every flight now." 

"Yes, you tell them to do that when you go to England."

"No, I don't need to be blamed when these things massive bloats over there, I can tell. You don't get in best....one of these days, someone gonna be driven mad, and she thinks she fits there without her family outside the palace, all of that.....I don't need to get to that degree other than, my large folder of this one X-ray, I get it today or this weekend, its my airline ticket the next step, what you think? Your running the door, and my running the door outside will be this Wal-mart the Lunch Box brown bags, I gonna purchase like 10, each have about 50 in there, or I gonna check in the dollar store. They are the kid's lunch box brown bags. They will have a menu.....Its kinda of like the Mc Donald brown bags, you can put the cash in there. "

"I think the fruits, the crackers, the animal crackers (the American sell in the giant bucket), you know that's vegan - the animal cracker.+ and then...the napkin, the dental floss a string. I be more attentive like you would, too. We make it 5 times picnic for 2 years, and we imagine there is a 3rd year. What you think?  For the kids. "

"When I start running out of the door....you know how we walk all these 26 rooms, and my mother if were doing some laundry, and helping her weight, and my shoes...my shoes....its tiring? You see, you and me don't stay on that door talking. That is the flows of the things, and you don't need to tell my mother, if we ever sit down for a meal anymore, you know that? You talk normal, and we carry our work normal. You feel like that, and I feel like that. So let me arrange some of these things to see if I feel a lot more breathing, happy, and sort these kids' lunch menu or the box exactly in 5 mins, so everyone is ready. The  more organized, I feel, the next step its my X-ray in that suitcase to the airplane Japan terminal at B number 23, I guess ! The LAX. "

"I feeling it when I tell you that, we take the airplane by yourself so many times."

"....well, the natural flows of the things, its we don't yell at each other, you don't feel your heart going up and down, and you stay home, or we tell each other that schedule more text oriented, so I be happy to face that one Japan. You cannot think, I just pretend, + the hospital here, that is about 2 hours drive. "

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(sorry I am busy.....)

"Harry, I feeling it. Many times....you know we can talk anything. Really. Everything. But how about we really making it these 6 months to 2 years plan. There are the 5 picnics the photo shooting, we gonna develop these photo in the Wal-mart, and frame it, the family and the kids. Some people in Asia creates these professional family photo, kinda like Frozen those cute Barbie light blue dress with the hair up, I wish the black tie for the boy, and the girl hair blonde I guess, what you think? Someone told me....those family professional photo made was cheap on that 1 street, her cousin was part of this professional movie industry or free lancer's photo shooting. Its the real Frozen that color, when she was young."

"We don't make that mistake, and we don't have that tradition, so after 5 years or 6 years, its not on the movie screen, so I can go in peace."

"You have anyone that literally dead in front of you? So...everyday we have that language earlier, and its from my part to you, you know that already."

"You don't know a lot of things from Asia and what I do, or how we sorting some of the future legal paper works, let's make it the Time, make it that life, for the kids, and our free roaming time is perfect in 3 months, 5 picnic, you plan, and if you want to develop the photo center in Wal-mart, they have a vision center next by. You ever gone there? If I pass by the Japan, I can get the free things maybe, they always doing this prescription free for the eyes. I find out the name cards, you can air shipping the contact lens, people travel all of the Asia, they go to Japan specifically for that, and one day, for our kids. "

"They bring the empty suitcase, and cargo the full of the 1 or 2 suitcase, that is exaggerating. I think...its true, the disposable ones.  "

The happy things.....

"The happy things, Harry, its you less angry to too many things, and I feeling too many rejection, or imagine this marriage to talk about, or openly to talk about it...to my fatty father or the mother, or another step mother. The last thing should ever happened its me literally doing this to them, front, and back, and be dead. You think of it? So ....to make me happy without you, and this Natural Flows of things will resume you back to your heart and mind, and body, and at the same time....I be happy seeing you, give me some lean on to these outsider the phone calls....so I gradually to stabilize this Japan, or LA travel, or that 2 hours driving to the hospital. I don't know how I making it there, and I don't know how we both can sit down and talk about these bills, or the things in nature what the future, we handle these, or not handling at all, if we sit doing nothing for our heart. For these long enough to say the 8 years, or the house purchasing, and you thought about all sort by yourself, to rid of, your mind body, to the tax annual year, or just newly we get all these profiles or all sort of the situation ...its our 3 meals the instant manifestation.  "

"You ever get a divorce in your life, Harry? Me neither. We never got married before this one wedding of another century ... its you and me so many times going through we hurt each other, and you got affected. So now, you start to look after yourself, like me looking after myself, someone always told me: its only we doing things for ourselves, that is what we can survive for ourselves, no body else will help us anything, and here - its my health. I have to put a certain things inside my stomach, you knowing it or not, to stabilize any of this up and down, the women's stomach.  "

"You know the natural flows of things? Meaning I am not really a Buddhism, but sometimes the Zen or the Japanese Zen the Asian stuffs. It means how to be happy, and we cannot just depart that saying, we ready for our life, and you get upset, or many times, or me included, and when we run out of the doors, we make a saying, and we make that schedule works. There is one terminal to Japan to make it back with the correct bill. You imagine I always know this things, and with these 3 phone calls or 5 by next week....I mapping out a web diagram plans, how I make myself talking on the phone to my mother to make me happier. Its 2 years to 5 years plan, how to move out of this we are, or you are....not me literally laying it down, we keep arguing about these, right? So we make it the time, anything else, we need to be happier, and me just require that a little bit lean on from seeing you still in the house, and take care of the house bill, I can mapping out these.

Lunch box for the kids, 2...and write it down 20 folder with the papers for 5 weeks, that is 5 sheets per folder, and 1 Japan airline, to imagine.....a task or 2, and coming it back. Then that is 2 years to make myself beautiful and be seen. That is a hurried plan. But we working on it."

"You know the period have these blood clot, you seeing a sticky stuffs on the girl's teenage the normal volumn pads. That is the uterus lining, when they swallen up, it will be emitted out, not necessary the women's egg stuffs."

"When you say the blood clot, you will get scared as a guy, or even me. But they are just the sticky stuffs emitted out along that pads, we have to wipe, wait (squatting), damp, scoop, front pushing it back, that's a very very small urine hole, that we girls will never never never tell you about. Having close together, or having a toilet per month 5 days, or when the girls growing up...to imagine a mother will teach her anything. Sometimes we learn this things on our own when we met a guy."

"I have to shopping list these we survive on the snack sometimes, you can give me a list, I pick up in the store. "