I feel hurting...

I miss miss miss miss miss miss miss Nicky, my chest hurts.

My mother in awe (O) shocking when someone called her on the insurance policy.

You all ate? Every nap before and after its to eat eat eat. I one day be free, even now, I just drink, eat little bit, and go to sleep a very long time, just keep sleeping, and wake up, drink something, and lay back down again. But I have been doing this since I am home. Sleep.

oh, have I think? No. They are the celebrity. Westlife is very famous, no one does those things from behind, not to them. You imagine the boyband is acting like that?

But correct, their finance I will never find out, and those things drop me down a little bit, they are not careful or Ronan is not careful, and there are the worse version stories if they make that up last year, or they were just really from the street...they just don't mention they born on the street to keep the hair, or the teeth be fix, or the face.

Because.... I have wish some of those video might be real, too. Not the least I will find out the final verdict of the final judgement if that Heaven opens up. 1 Ronan ....I imagine what, or I thought about next? I already panting down a lot over this what I see, to when the final day. The estimation of that, I would think 40 years or never......but not they hide it in my psychi sense, in "what if", a second,.... don't tell me ...

If you stare at the heaven parts, no matter what, you all have to go through everyone's materials got screw it up.

The typhoon already touch the land? More West....

We cannot talk about the typhoon now because of all these?

I don't want to write anymore......sleeping through, forgot.

Do you know WHOM I AM?

The guys are the rough human so they are the guys. I heard the girls can just stay with their doctor like those movie I used to say. They give me my money that day I imagine a what life, too many paper works, and I never plan that life ahead and Shane they never think they gonna get married to stay with someone.....and I am in a hurry to go somewhere, not I intend to, or I wish to, just....all these feel strange, its not to be with a guy, but driven to lean toward, so I lean towards. The life is in front of us right now, they are on the tour making the money, and I have all these details to write to then I have a future to get where....

Meaning the professional people, imagine.....when we were 17 years old, and we are the similar age bracket, and Western culture everyone has a job to re-meet again, and we talk about where we worked, and then the future we meet it again, where we used to get another jobs and left. It isn't what they becoming today to make the money.

Writing a what paper to get to heaven....imagine that is one of the options with them around means. That is real or that is not real. I am sure they imagine that.

No, that is not the imagination, I never think of that but I give everyone an example. 

Maybe I should call Shane, we got a typhoon....I thought they were where....worried.

Good night ~